Current mood:

contemplative

The Past
I do not understand why people have such a habit of harping on the past. What is done, is done. It cannot be undone. It cannot be relived. It cannot be changed. What good does it do to dwell on it?

I am doing my best to let go of the past and not dwell on the things that happened any longer. I must do so, because continuing to think about it and let it bother me was hurting me and hurting Zenobia as well. I cannot let that happen. So the past is no longer important.

But now, Marius confuses me. We all want to be a family again...the way we were before...him, me and Zenobia. Mael too, if he wanted, but he does not. I am very happy that Marius wishes for us to be a family again. But I do not understand why the past needs to be brought up in order to do it.

Would it not be more practical to look to the future and making it a good one for the three of us? That seems to me to be more important than dwelling on the way things used to be. They were good yes, but they can be good again. We can make them good. The three of us.

I do not know. Maybe there is something I am missing.