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New Year, Renewed Love
I had found myself alone as the old year left us and the new year began...and as I stood there in the shadows, watching multitudes of lovers and friends kiss in 2006, I made a decision.

I decided in that moment to leave Miami. I had been there for some time, and I quite enjoyed it, but it was not where I wanted to be any longer.

Zenobia leaving me for Mael had hurt me deeply, but I had heard through various sources that they were no longer together. Had I heard earlier that she wished to speak to me, I would have returned much sooner. But I did not hear, and so I stayed away, thinking she wanted nothing to do with me.

Oh! If I had only known how wrong I was!

I returned to Zenobia a mere few days ago, barely daring to hope that she still loved me and still wanted to be with me. But whatever the outcome was to be, I had to see her, I had to know, I could not stay away any longer.

She was sorry...and because I love her with my whole heart and soul, I forgave her instantly. What care I for the pain of past mistakes if her beautiful radiance is by my side in the present and future?

My beautiful, darling Zenobia has not changed. But yet at the same time, she has. She was afraid...concerned...that I would turn her away from me for not being the physically pure woman who left me all that time ago. Her relationship with Santiago had changed her and she was uncertain if I could accept that.

I saw very astutely that she did love Santiago. I cannot blame her for that, for he is a handsome and charming Immortal in his own way. She was treated well by him and I am grateful to him for treating her with such respect and love. But I also saw, through her words and actions, that her love for me was much stronger, and any thought I had of jealousy or unease was instantly laid to rest. I am no longer uncertain as to where her heart lies. It belongs to me and mine to her, and we are together again the way we should be.

Listen to me! I am not often given to rambling like this! We are together again...and I could not be happier! Oh if I had known sooner this would happen...if I had known she still loved me and missed me as much as I missed her...I would not have stayed away so long! I am given to wondering, though, what would have happened had I returned sooner. I do believe Zenobia's relationship with Santiago was something very good for her. She learned and grew as a result of it, and that is never a bad thing. Our own relationship will be different...better and more intimate...as well, and that is most definitely not a bad thing!

I am delighted to say things could not be better. Zenobia and I are hosting a party for all our friends to celebrate my return and the renewal of our love...our relationship. I have barely stopped smiling since I returned, and if it is possible, I feel younger than I have in a very long time!

My dearest, darling Zenobia, words cannot describe how happy I am to be with you again, although I have tried to put it into words here! I love you so much and I will strive to do whatever is necessary to please you and satisfy your wants and needs for as long as you will let me do so.